It was a picture perfect day yesterday. Sun shining. Humidity
low. Air still. I came home after dropping the children of and asked my husband
if he wanted to walk with me. He decided on Elbow Beach. We got to the beach,
one of the most beautiful beaches in the world and I was aghast. The beach did
not look so beautiful because Sargasso has washed ashore and is covering a
large portion of the beach. And at first all I could see was the ugliness. The
flies. The messiness.
But as we started walking and I felt the sunshine on my face
warming my whole body, a feeling of peace washed over me. I removed my jacket
which is amazing because it is January to inhale the freshness of the air, the
smell of the Sargasso. The smell of the ocean. And then I was able to see
beyond the ugliness. The sound of the ocean began to soothe me. To relax me.
The waves crashing over the reef making them look like humpback whales frolicking
in the waves. The motion of the ocean rhythmic to my ears as the waves washed
in and out. Sometimes gently other times with force. The azure blue mixed with
turquoise and other shades of blue that are almost indescribable. The scenery
was breathtaking. The moment surreal. Sargasso and all.
I watched the water for quite some time feeling so small, so
insignificant at the expanse of the ocean compared to the limited amount of
land Bermuda has and shivered. I realised if the ocean wanted to, it could
swallow us whole and not even notice. Fear rippled through my body as the
vulnerability of living on a tiny island in the middle of the North Atlantic took
over. The fear turned into memories forcing me to smile as I thought how
different I felt when I was a young girl. I thought about how I used to look
out at the ocean and its vastness and all I could see was infinity. I used to
dream about what other people on other lands were doing. I used to imagine them
watching the moon as I did at night and wondered what they thought. The
vastness of the ocean didn’t make me feel insignificant then. Instead it used
to make me feel free - like there was nothing boxing me in. Like there was a
whole world out there waiting for me.
When I was young I believed
there was space for everyone. But now life has taught me the dangers of the
ocean and I do not look at it with the same abandonment I did when I was young.
Now I look at it with reverence because it moves side by side with my little
island bringing in the Sargasso to nourish the beaches, to allow the sand to
rebuild after hurricanes and storms, to give the tiny sea creatures the time to
thrive, tiny crabs and other tiny creatures I could not identify.
I exhaled long and hard when I realised I was witnessing the
circle of life through the ocean. The Sargasso there to replenish the sand. The
water sending it in. Ugliness yielding beauty if we look beyond it. Thoughts of my childhood floating in. Visions of my adult
life circling through. Everything and everyone, the ugly and the beautiful has its place in this circle of life. Even when I move beyond this plane, the ocean will still
do what it does and so will the Sargasso. We are all intertwined, one in the
same, of the same cloth. Living, breathing, growing, exploring, changing all
through the circle of life.
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