The dichotomy of life

Some days I am in the rhythm

Some days I am in the groove

Some days I feel like I can move mountains

Some days I feel like singing and dancing at the top of my lungs

Some days I believe in miracles

Because I accept I am a miracle

Some days there is nothing that can stop me

Other days I feel still

Like a rock

Like a heavy burden is weighing me down

Like someone is holding me back

I can’t shake the feeling

The tiredness

The aggravation

The place of in between

And then I stop and listen

Listen to the stillness

The quietness

Tugging at the noose around my neck

And I know it is up to me

To shift from the place of dread

To take me to the place where I feel I belong

The place where I feel wanted and needed

The place of abundance

But in doing so I respect the days

When I feel low

As much as I appreciate the days when I feel high

Because without one I would know no other

To be on a constant high no matter what

Means I am not pushing myself

Not bursting through my boundaries

Not challenging myself

And then I wonder why I feel like I am in the doldrums

Why everything is so mundane

Easy and boring

So I am always pushing

Seeking

Trying

And sometimes I go down a path that takes me back to the doldrums

While other times I am on a path of gold and diamonds

But what I am learning most of all is that I get the greatest satisfaction

When I do

Rather than speak

When I serve

Rather than criticize

When I contribute

Rather than sitting on the sidelines complaining

So I accept the days of darkness

And welcome the days of light

They are both necessary parts of my growth

My existence

My life

And for the good and bad days

I am truly grateful

Because it means I am alive

And breathing

And living

The dichotomy of life

Light and dark

Dark and light

Namaste