This morning I was in the middle of a beautiful meditation.
One of those meditations that takes you to a place full of love and light and
surrender. To the place where you feel like you are a part of everything and are
in the flow with everything. I was feeling really good. Grateful and appreciative.
Just about to get really smug with myself when my computer starting to make a
strange noise. The music I was meditating with starting to stick. And then it
just shut off. Abruptly. Just like that.
I felt deprived. Angry. Disappointed. And wondered why in the
world that happened just when I was getting in the flow. Just when I was surrendering.
Just when I could feel my body relaxing and my mind getting in sync with my
relaxed body. My nerves instantly were jarred as I was yanked out of my serene
state back to the real world. What was the Universe trying to tell me? Why was
I suddenly on edge when I had been on the edge of total and utter surrender?
And when I looked outside I saw the morning had changed from
a cloudless morning to a cloudy morning. The light was murky. Not clean as it
was looking like it would be when I went into my meditation. The wind was picking
up. The whole atmosphere outside had changed from the one I woke up to before my
meditation.
And it was the clues from nature that taught me the lesson I
was meant to learn. We cannot rely on outside sources to bring us to a state of
surrender. We cannot rely on other things to help us to go to that place of inner
peace. Because just like my computer had a blue screen and died in the middle of
my state of utopia, that’s what life does to us sometimes.
Just like the weather outside had changed and gone all hazy
and breezy from the promising beautiful still morning, that’s what life does to
us sometimes. In order to keep up with change and to be accepting of it, we must
be able to go to that place of peace, love and light within us on our own
accord because sometimes we may find ourselves in situations and places we
never expected. And in order to know peace, we have to be peace. In order to
know love, we have to be love. In order to surrender, we have to free our minds
to know and accept that life will sometimes take us where we did not think we
would ever go.
And when we have the patience and go with the flow we will
find we are exactly where we need to be not where we thought we should be. As I
found this morning, once I let go of the disappointment I felt with my blue
screen, my computer restarted and I got the lesson I was meant to get. And then
just like that the rain started to pour down outside. Giving my grass the much
needed water it needed to continue to grow and thrive. The tree frogs began to sing at the top of their lungs. The outside looking dewy and glittery from the raindrops. Changing the morning from one of heaviness to one of freshness and abundance.
Teaching me that it is in the unexpected that we learn the
most about who we are and what we can tolerate. And when we learn to surrender
and go with the flow, we will be showered with the abundance of the Universe.
And for my unexpected lesson and the rain, I am truly grateful.
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