Some days

Some days I don’t know where to begin or what to write about

Other days the words come tumbling out of my head and spill onto the screen

Some days I feel like a fraud

Like I am not a writer at all but just a woman hiding behind a façade

Some days I feel like I can do anything, be anything

Other days I want to hide from myself and the world

Some days I understand why I am here and what I am meant to do

Other days I don’t know who I am and what I want

Some days I confront myself head on

Other days I don’t know what confrontation is

Some days I feel on top of the world

Other days I feel like the world is on top of me

Some days I feel like a good wife and lover

Other days I wonder why I got married and question what love is

Some days I love my children to death – like they can do no wrong

Other days I wonder where they came from and what they came here to teach me

Some days I love what I do

Other days I think there has to be more to life than this

Some days I sit and wonder

Other days I get up and do

Some days I understand I am no different from any other person

When I am honest with myself

I know that some days will be stellar

And other days will not

That what I must do on those days when I can accomplish

Is to accomplish and do

And not worry about the days when I could not and did not

To remember just like I am not always the same

Neither is life

And on those days when I don’t want to get up and do

That’s when I need to do so even more

Because it is on those days that I learn the most

About who I am and who I am not

It is on those days when I want to bury my head in the sand

That the sand is asking me to understand the whys of life

And to keep going and discovering

Until my writing flows

My mind blows

My confidence expands

And my joy abounds

Because it is on those grey days when life becomes crystal clear

There are no two days alike

Just a journey meant to be enjoyed

A life to be lived

And a destination that is never reached until the end

So just enjoy it as much as I can

That’s when the smile comes

The gratitude returns

And the sun comes back out

Filling the grey day with light

The light of my journey

Filling my spirit with love

Such that I can go out into the world

Filled with love, light and compassion

Knowing some days I will be up

And other days I will be down

And that's okay

And for this message I am truly grateful

Namaste