Even in our darkest hour

What a beautiful morning. Stars bright in a clear sky. Twinkling and sparkling against the almost full moon hanging on for a bit longer before going to the other side of the world. Illuminating our realm for that little while longer – its fullness and richness casting shadows throughout the morning darkness. Shining down until it is time for it to give way to the sun.

I stood at the window this morning looking at the constellations on the east side of the sky.  Inhaling the promise it contains of what is to come. What can come if I believe and if I don’t hold on to the darkness that is trying so hard to take away my light. If I don’t allow people shrouded in darkness who pretend they are full of light to overshadow the light within me. If I don’t give them to power to take away the possibility and bountifulness take exists within me. Pulling me down into their pit of darkness.

Because I realized looking out over the east sky then moving to the west side of the house to see the light of the moon, that even in our darkest moment, there is always light. Always beauty to behold. Always a path for us out of the darkness when we are ready for it and are receptive to it.

Eventually when we are still enough and silent enough, the truth we have always known comes to the forefront. The truth we do not want to accept sometimes because with it comes disappointment and sadness to know there are people who have hidden motives for doing things. But what I am learning is their motives are their own and have nothing to do with me. It is them trying to get to the light of who they are and sometimes they know no other way to get out of the darkness except to bring more darkness. Wondering how it is others always have the light while they can’t get out of the darkness. Wondering why others no longer want to wallow in the darkness with them but instead are shining brightly in the light.

 I am slowly but surely learning is as long as I am of the light and not lured to the dark side by these powerful dark carriers, the truth will always be revealed and their darkness will no longer have the ability to fool me. Our society has made it far easier for people to wallow in darkness – blaming, accusing, judging, gossiping, and not being honest about who they are and what they represent. Instead they are filled with such self loathing that the only way they can feel better about themselves is to try to take the light away from those who they perceive have it by slinging mud at them. Their joy is short lived because darkness cannot bring fulfillment, only light can and does.

The light actually becomes much brighter and more alluring when the truth is revealed. And the reason it does is because it takes hard lessons to bring forth the light. And once the light comes out, there is no place for darkness. Because in the light of the truth, there is no darkness. Instead the light brings with it feelings of peace, love and understanding making it infectious, inviting and contagious.

As humans we get lulled into the darkness because it is so much easier to get to then to learn our lessons. But when we give ourselves the time to really think about the times we are shrouded in darkness and we think about how we truly feel, we know it is not a good place. It is a heavy place full of people that are heavy with darkness. Full of people climbing over the top of each other. Clawing at each other. Clamouring to get to the top. Trying desperately to get to the light no matter what it takes. Failing to see getting to the light has nothing to do with hurting others. Getting to the light only comes when we learn to come face to face with our own truths. With who we truly are. Not from trying to suck the energy from the light bringers. Not from trying to tear them down.

Only when we accept who we are by listening to our inner voice, our inner stillness, we gain the ability to learn our lessons. Allowing us to move into the light where the air is fresh, clean and oh so full of love. Then we can breathe again. Inhaling deeply without hesitation. Without toxicity and exhaling slowly and with gratitude for accepting each one of us, when we are ready, is the truth and the light because we are of the truth and light.

As the morning sky showed me this morning, even in our darkest hour, there is always light. Always.