Yesterday morning was one of those mornings when I threw
back the curtains with excitement only to find nothing but grey greeting me for
the day. A grey and windy Monday morning. No sun. No clear blue skies. Just
dull grey light. Heavy clouds. Threatening to rain. Nothing worse than starting
the week of to a grey day. I wanted to pull those curtains back and go back to
bed. Instead I focused myself. Put myself in the mind set for work and got on
with it.
Took my children to school. Listening to them chattering in the
back seat. Listening to them discussing their day. Feeling sad when I had to
drop them off as each one of us went our own separate way to lead a separate
path.
I questioned what kind of day I was going to have. I
wondered of all days why did Monday, the first day of the work week, have to be
so grey? By the time lunchtime rolled around the grey skies had been replaced
with blue, perfect blue, still windy but perfect blue skies and puffy white
clouds. I decided to break my routine – to do something different.
I got in my car drove home for lunch – all of 7 minutes from
my office to my door- changed out of my
work clothes into my walking clothes and went for a walk. Setting out in the
middle of the day like a woman without a care in the world. Pure nirvana. I
felt like a naughty school girl skipping school. It was exhilarating.
Invigorating.
I walked slowly at first trying to get my bearings. Trying
to comprehend what I was doing. Breaking my corporate woman image up and going
out as a woman without an agenda. I felt so free to be doing something I
wouldn’t normally do. As I walked down the street I inhaled the fresh air, and
my pace hastened as the fresh air filled my lungs. Making me want to run down
the street with my arms out stretched.
I walked for half an hour just enough to free my mind from the
prison it had entered into earlier. As I walked back to my house something told
me to look up. So I did. And I saw the leaves of the trees swaying in the
breeze. All different colours and shades from red to green to bronze to
fuschia. I slowed down a bit to listen to the sound of the wind. A beautiful
haunting sound that went through my being. I thought of when I was first pregnant
some 14 years ago and how I used to walk first thing in the morning and I used
to talk to my unborn son telling him to listen to the sound of the wind. Of how
I couldn’t wait to meet him. Of how quickly time has sped by since he entered my
life.
I saw birds flitting from tree to tree. Landing. Chirping at
each other. I saw the sky beyond the trees. Silhouettes of the leaves against
the sun and clouds. I saw peace, love
and possibility. I saw freedom and felt it too. I inhaled deeply. I exhaled
long and hard.
I gave a silent thanks
to the Universe for all the abundance and beauty that surrounds me every day. For
taking the time to come out and enjoy it. Appreciate it. Be in it. I gave a silent
thanks to the Universe for following my instincts to break the mould. To step
outside the box and do something I would not normally do. And in doing so I had
shifted my energy. Allowing me to go
back to the office ready to tackle whomever or whatever came my way from a
fresh point of view.
I gave thanks to the Universe for helping me to remember
that sometimes we have to step outside the box to understand there really is no box
except for the one we create ourselves. For reminding me that time is precious and
it is up to us to make the most of it. For exhaling. For remembering. For rejuvenating. And for that midday interlude I am truly
grateful.
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