Last evening I sat at my desk at home staring out the
window. Watching the sky change from blue to grey to hints of red as the sun
began to fade for the day. Making way for the darkness to take over from the
light. The natural progression of time.
I watched the stillness of the air. Trying to still my
racing brain. Trying not to think about anything but just focusing on the puffy
red clouds floating past. Trying to release one thought that was bombarding my
mind at a time as each puffy cloud floated by.
Thinking of the Yoga class I had done at lunchtime and the Yoga
teacher telling us to just surrender to the poses we were in. Remembering how
good it felt to release the tensions I felt when I surrendered into the poses. Remembering
the feeling of heat rushing through me when I did. Releasing out into the air. Thinking
all I have to do is surrender to this moment. And just sit and watch the
stillness and settling of the evening.
As nature was making way for the night to come in. Letting
its natural order unfold. No fuss. Not
trying to deny it. Just letting it gently roll in as it was meant to do.
And then I thought why is it that nature lets the natural order
of things happen on its own. It does not try to superimpose anything that is not
meant to be there. So why do we? Nature doesn’t panic because there is a drought
or there is too much rain or it is too cold or it is too hot. It just adjusts
itself according to the situation it finds itself in and goes with the flow. It
surrenders to its circumstances no matter how threatening those circumstances
may be. Because it knows this too shall pass.
So why can’t we? Why do we make life so complicated and difficult?
Layering challenge after challenge on top of each other. Trying so hard to make
ourselves appear to be busy, stressed and overwhelmed as if they are badges of
our worth.
When in fact what would serve us better would be to embrace
each moment in our lives. Slowing down sometimes to stare out the window and
watch the wonders of nature unfold. Watch the day turn into night. Listen to
the birds doing their evening call. Listen to our children playing. Accept that
it is okay sometimes to just surrender and be still.
And then we will see and understand that it is in the moment
of our surrender that we understand we are a part of something so magical. So
wonderful. So abundant. And we will inhale and exhale with gratitude as our
bodies, minds and souls remember we are all here for a reason. We are all
necessary. And if we stopped searching all the time for the next best thing and
instead focused on the beauty and magic that unfold before us each and every day we would
know to be patient and accepting because our lives, just like nature, are
unfolding as they are meant to.
This morning I am staring out the window at the breaking
dawn. The sky reminding me so much of the twilight sky the evening before that
I feel as if I am in the same moment as I was last evening. But I know it’s
different because it’s another day and time. Reminding me that even when we
feel we have not progressed because everything feels and looks the same,
nothing is ever the same because we change every second, every minute, every
hour of every single day. And just like nature and time we just have to roll
with it. Surrender to it. Enjoy our stillness whenever we can. Give ourselves
time to breathe and appreciate so we can see there is enough in this world for
each one of us to be all we can be.