Last night I had one of those prophetic dreams. One of those
dreams that stays with you and rattles you. Makes you rethink everything but
for some reason I can’t remember the whole dream or the characters involved but
what I do remember is the sign that appeared – the sign that is etched in my memory and it was the sign on a pink
background that had the word FEAR etched into it in white letters. There were
accompanying words around it. Words to help me through my fear but for some
reason those words remained in the dream and are somewhere in the recesses of
my brain I’m sure but not anywhere where I can remember them. As a matter of
fact. I can’t remember what the dream was trying to tell me but I know it was a
sign. An answer to a prayer.
I woke up this morning paralyzed with fear. Afraid to move. Afraid
to get out of the comfort of my bed. The security of my room. I wanted to stay
in bed believing fear could not touch me there or stop me from doing what I
need to do. Even though in my mind I knew it was fear that was keeping me in
bed. Telling me to stay where I was. Fooling me into believing where I was was
the best place for me because I know it and am comfortable with it.
Eventually I told myself to get out of bed, to try to
understand what the dream was trying to tell me. So I reached for my phone. For
some reason that was where I was being led. I checked one message on my phone
and found this quote that a friend had posted on my Facebook page, “Love can be hard. Love requires you to be
kind when you are angry, patient when you feel anxious, compassionate when you
judge others, caring when you feel apathetic, trust when you've been wronged,
let go when you want to hold on, know that the other person is you, take risks
when you're scared, to always see the lesson and never look back once you've
decided." (Jackson Kiddard )
Thank you Michelle St. Jane for being my angel today because
it was your message that allowed me to get out of bed with vigor. Allowed me to
throw back the comforters on my bed, casting aside the false comfort and security
I was feeling. allowing me to understand it was that falsehood that was keeping me mired in fear. Opening me to accept in order to move beyond my fears, I have to live
each moment and believe in me.
I walked into the bathroom feeling truly heard and with pep in my step. Knowing my
guides were on my side helping me and leading me to answers propelling me to
know I am good enough for whatever I choose to do. And in doing so I was rewarded even further with these two other words of
inspirations waiting just for me,
“I am open to the guidance of synchronicity and do not let
expectations hinder my path.”
“Cultivate the discipline to look on the bright side, and
refrain from entertaining anxiety-producing scenarios (“There’s no way she’ll
date me, I’m too short”) or their subsequent what-ifs (“What if they think my
writing is cliché?” “What if the boss is secretly thinking of firing me?”).
Because if you don’t think positively, the planets will cheerfully say, “Makes
no difference to us,” and reinforce your concerns instead.”
And finally I saw this one that allowed me to breathe and to
know no matter what I am okay and will be okay. Fear is just there to remind me
to keep going, to keep pushing because when I am feeling it, I am being led to
move beyond the falsehoods of comfort and security, “Take the initiative instead
of waiting for the other guy to approach you. Your efforts will be justly (and
properly) rewarded.”
So angels, guides, and the power of the Divine, I thank you
for helping me to see the only one stopping me is me and my false sense of
security. Thank you for sending me fear in my dreams that sent me on a quest to
work my way through it and get out of bed to see and appreciate the glory in
this beautiful moment and day. And to me it is up to me to be me and do what
resonates with me. Namaste
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