Harmony

There used to be a time when I hated Mondays. Sunday nights I would become agitated because I knew I had to start a whole new work week. A full week of schedules. Work. School. Lunches made for my children. Thinking about all that was negative rather than looking at the fact that I woke up on Monday morning. That I had a whole new week to be who I am meant to be. To explore who I am not. To spread love and light into the world from the love and light I receive so abundantly from the Universe.

So now when I feel that feeling of depravation coming over me on Monday mornings, I replace it with gratitude that I am here again. Ready to serve in the way I was sent here to serve. Ready to learn from everything and everyone that comes my way. Some experiences and people to remain in my life while are transitory. Here to teach then let go. But lessons learned with gratitude nonetheless.

Teaching me to change my perspective to say, wow, I have a new week beginning today. Another week to share what I have learned. To teach as much as I can from the trials and tribulations I experience. To gain as much as I can from life so I can live my life as fully as I possibly can.

And then I looked up and there in front of me is my best birthday present ever. My painting, Harmony, by Bear Cloud staring right back at me. Reminding me life is all about finding and achieving balance. Harmony. It is so wonderful to sit at my computer now and look up and see Harmony. Yin and Yang. Love and hate. Male and female. Teaching and learning. Acceptance and prejudiceness. Prisoners of our own minds and creators of our own minds.

So when I feel those feelings of too much to bear creeping up on me, I am reminded by my painting to inhale deeply and exhale slowly  because to every action and feeling there is an equal and opposite reaction and feeling. In everything there is harmony when we free ourselves from the limitations of our minds. When we allow ourselves to understand this too shall pass. This experience, no matter how trying, is here for a reason so I bless it then surrender it to the Universe. Then watch as it passes over me. Leading me to the other side of the mountain. Inhaling and exhaling the whole time.

So here’s to a new week of living and experiencing. A new beginning. A feeling of space. Of freedom. Of gratitude. And I no longer hate Mondays. Nor Sunday evenings. Because I know they are a necessary part of my growth. So here’s to another week everyone. A week of harmony, balance, love and light even in the face of our greatest darkness. Harmony. Namaste.

The Gift of Harmony from Bear Cloud

My 50^th birthday present from my husband finally arrived last night. Even though my birthday was in April. And the reason there was such a delay is because my present is a very special and unique painting done by a Native American artist, Bear Cloud, who resides in Sedona, Arizona.

My husband stumbled upon Bear Cloud’s art gallery while we were in Sedona and loved the art. Loved the feel of the gallery and knew it would be a place that I would love. So he took me there to see how I would react. I walked into the gallery and felt embraced by the light. A feeling of returning to a space I have always known came to me as I walked through the gallery.

Each painting depicting or evoking a memory of thoughts, visions and all knowingness I have known all my life but could never really articulate came through. I sat down in reverence and took in each painting. Each feeling that came to me and then my eye settled on two paintings. Two paintings that resonated the most with me.

But there was one that was calling my name. Speaking to me. I knew it was meant for me. It is a moody painting. Bear cloud paints outside the frame. His paintings depict the infinite nature of our Universe. His frame a continuation of his art rather than a barrier. The painting drew me in because no matter how dark it seemed at first, it is a painting full of light. Of life. Of symbolism. Of togetherness. Of Yin and Yang. It depicts a strong man as a part of the majestic mountain with his mirror image, an equally strong woman, reflecting back to him in the water.  It was the female image in the water that caught my eye.

I could feel her presence. His presence in me. I could feel a togetherness. Bear Cloud was not there but I wanted him there. To understand his painting. To feel his energy to see if we were connected as I thought. To see if his painting was as much as part of me as I felt. And as I was thinking this, in he walked. And the energy was definitely there between us. For he walked directly to me and hugged me. Our eyes locking and our energy reconnecting as if we were continuing on a journey we had embarked on before.

He explained the painting was called “Harmony” and this is the poem that accompanies it,

“In the lodge of the earth and sky

                In the water of the eagle nations

                                Sacred sound flowed with sacred heart.

The circle of the Grandfather and nations of the sky,

                The circle of the waters and nations of the Earth

                                Come together as one,

The Door of sacred vision opened

And divine perfection flowed

                                In the Harmony of all that exists.

                                A-ho- Two Eagles were as stars sitting

                                On the water of sacred breath.

                                                The bear and the eagle spiraled as one

                                                And harmony was the

                                                                Movement that sat in the wind.”

He said the two figures - the males and female when they “come together in a perfect way, whether it is the components of our internal matrix, or that of male and female or seeing a truth that expands the entire cosmos, it evokes universal principles. Within the painting is the God’s Eye. Its basic construction is two triangles base to base creating a diamond shape as does the male and female when the male figure in the top of the mountain has his hand pressed on the ground and in the painting shows a mirror image of his hands against hers pressed together. The top of their heads along with the tips of their fingers creates the four points needed to see the hidden image of the “God’s Eye.”

“When symbolic perfection  is found within our inner core to a point of pure harmony, it is said to create the abilities to see into the unseen worlds, to see beyond the normal and also opens the doors to move within it,. It is the ability to see into the vapors of the cosmos. It is a magical core that moves the universe.”

And that was why I was drawn to this painting and to Bear Cloud. And why my husband purchased Harmony for me for my 50^th birthday. Because I am beginning to understand there is much more to us than what we can see. Much more. And that is why the painting arrived day before yesterday because that was exactly the day my meditation took me to that place of the unseen, the unknown, the place of nothingness that is the all. The Universe is letting me know that the polaric existence of males and female express a construction that exists within all people and also encompasses the entire expanse of the Universe. Depicting in night and day, evil and purity, hate and love, male and female.

I am well on my journey to understanding the polaric nature of our existence. That which drives us to find balance, peace and harmony. And now I have that depiction through Bear Cloud’s magical and skillful art to remind me every single day of my life of the “Harmony” I am seeking. I am listening Universe. I am. And I am grateful for this Gift from my husband through your watchful eye by allowing me to have “Harmony” in my home. Namaste.

                

Sometimes we have to just stop

Lately I have been going nonstop. From one task to another. Sometimes not having time to even sleep very much because I am allowing myself to be pulled in so many different directions. Allowing myself to be overworked because I am not saying no. Last night I did not get to bed until 2.30 this morning. So really it was not even last night. It was this morning. Only to wake at 5.35 panicking because I had overslept by 35 minutes.

My eyes were barely open. My body shaking from sheer exhaustion. My reactions sometimes over the top because I am over exhausted. So I sat and meditated. Trying to calm my nerves and get my equilibrium back in order.

And during my meditation the scene of my family being together on our porch with our little girl rabbit Mysty came into my vision. And immediately the tenseness oozed out of my body and I could feel my whole being smile. Just seeing that vision of how we spent several hours of quality time together on our porch gave me the boost I needed to stop panicking.

And what I realized from this vision is sometimes I just need to stop. To take some time just to be. To do nothing but stare out in nature. And I got that feeling when I came home early from work. Not really early but on time from work and sat out on my porch with my family including our newest addition, our little girl rabbit, Mysty.

We sat and chatted while Mysty hopped from person to person seeking acknowledgment from each one of us. Wanting to be rubbed. Touched. And loved. She would stay by our sides for as long as she needed to feel our attention on her then she would move on. Spreading her sense of peace and love in her gentle silence.  Reminding each one of us about the power of silence. About the power of just being.

I was transported back to when I was gazing out over our property. At the bluebirds flying in and out. At the trees gently blowing in the breeze. At the vibrant colours of the flowers in the yard. At the clear blue sky. My vision reminding me that life is not meant to be constantly rushed about. Not meant to be so busy that we don’t take the time to enjoy all that we are and have in the present moment.

Life is meant to be sitting with my family. Enjoying their company. Enjoying our home together. Doing nothing sometimes but just being in each other’s space. Appreciating each other’s company as little Mysty was showing us by hopping from one of us to the other. Looking out together over all that we are and have with gratitude and grace.

As the evening wore on and the conversation grew thin and we all retreated into our own worlds, the sound of the silence became that much more gratifying. That much more connecting. My son drawing. My husband, daughter and I reading. Coexisting as individuals in our family group. With Mysty stretched out on the tile in the middle of us all, I felt a deep sense of peace and gratitude for taking the time to do nothing. To not feel guilty for leaving work behind and fully being present with my family.

So this morning when I woke up tired and irritated about the amount that I have waiting for me. The people waiting for decisions from me. The busyness that is awaiting me outside my door, I inhaled, released the panic I originally felt when I thought about the vision in my meditation. The vision of how I had spent such quality time with my family. How we had spent time together by being fully satisfied to be in each other’s presence. By knowing that sometimes it is okay to just be rather than to do.

Reminding myself that I am only one person and I can only do so much. And sometimes that means saying no and giving myself the time to recharge. This is the only way I will be able to be fully present in my life and be able to offer all I can. Doing nothing is sometimes the best gift we can give ourselves. Because in that nothingness we fully connect with the All. Recharging us.m Refueling us. Namaste.

Sometimes when I meditate

Sometimes when I meditate I go to a place far, far away where there is no beginning nor end. Where there is nothing but white light and my thought and the thoughts of the Universe all mingling together. So much so that I hear nothing but silence. And in that silence a clear vision of the Nothingness that represents the All. And I get such a feeling of appreciation, love, abundance and awe. I understand that I am an important part of the whole as are we all when I surrender and allow myself to connect back to the Source. To the all knowing. To the place where there is no beginning nor end.

Sometimes I get so lost in the nothingness that is the all that I lose track of time because in this place there is no sense of time. Sometimes I feel like I am being lifted up out of my physical being and transported to a place where there is no dimension, no defined place. It just is. And in this state, I touch the All Knowing. The field of possibility. The Source of us all. And I feel such gratitude. Such amplitude. Such love and light flow through me.

I allow myself to dwell l in this place for as long as I am humanly capable of remaining. Because once I think too much about where I am, before I know it, I am transported back into my human limited form. My physical being. Once again defined by dimension that does not exist in the All Knowing,. The place where there is no beginning nor end. The place of the One Source. The All. The Whole. The place of the White Light.

This morning I experienced this beautiful place and unlimited space when I found myself in my meditation soaring off the side of a cliff. Floating. Being carried to the One  Source. Being given the privilege of experiencing all that was, is and ever will be. Being shown that no matter what happens, has happened and will happen, it is all a part of the Divine Plan. Of which I am a part. Of which I have always been a part, and always will be a part. Allowing me to understand every action has a knock on effect because we are all a part of the Whole. A part of the All Knowing. The White Light. The One Source.

And I came out of my meditation this morning feeling tremendous heat. Feeling tremendous possibility. Sensing there is no need to worry. Because all is as it is meant to be. Feeling tremendously grateful for all that I am, was and ever will be for so shall it be said, so shall it be done. I am a part of the Whole. A part of the One Source. A part of each one of us because we are all one. All united in our common beginning and end because we and it are all one in the same.

And for this glimpse into who I am and was and ever will be, I am truly grateful. With love and light and peace and blessing I accept,Thy will be done. Namaste.

When we have faith

When we have faith in the Universe, things unfold as they should.

When we have patience with the Universe, things unfold as they are meant to

When we surrender all to the Universe, the Universe surrenders all to us

When we express gratitude to the Universe, the Universe responds in kind

By opening doors

Leading us to the path meant just for us

Guiding us through our darkest night

When we smile at where we are in life

Truly smile and feel joy and abandon

The Universe responds in kind

By lifting our spirits

And filling us with incredible peace

And possibility

Reminding us

Life is what we make it

What we believe

What we go for in earnest

What feels right to us on the inside

Not the outside

Life is all about taking chances

Putting ourselves out there

When it feels right

Only when it feels right for us

Not others

And working toward our dreams

Our dreams alone

No one else’s

Then surrendering all to the Universe

And watching

And waiting

Until we get that all knowing feeling

That feeling that rises from our toes to our heads

And then tingles through our bodies

Beings

Minds

And souls

Alighting us

Fueling us

That feeling that tell us

This is right

This feel good

This resonates with our souls

When our whole bodies

Minds and souls

Feel like they have been filled to the brim

With all that was, is and ever will be

Giving us the will and ability to be

Accepting of love

Abundance

Allowing the warmth to rush through us

Fill us with love and light

That’s when we know

We have been shown the Grace of the Divine

Been given the Light of the Universe

Been Blessed for following

And taking heed of the All Knowing

Because we have learned

That when we have faith

Everything works out as it should

When we have patience

Everything works out as it is meant to

When we show gratitude to the Universe,

The Universe responds in kind

By bestowing upon us

Abundance

Gratitude

Grace

And the gifts and treasures

So freely

Available to us all

When we surrender to the All Knowing

The All Knowing surrenders to us

And for this blessing and remembrance

I am truly grateful

May I have faith

Patience and gratitude

Today and all the days I am meant to

So I too may be opened to the gifts and treasures

And abundance of the Universe

so freely available to us all

Namaste

Right here. Right now. Grounded.

Sometimes we spend so much time trying to get over there that we forget to touch base with here. With right where we are - right now. When we spend all of our time trying to get over there, we lose sight of the obvious that is right in front of us. We fail to see the doors that open for us. The paths that clear for us. Because we are too busy worrying about being over there that we neglect what’s here right now.

We are here right now because that’s where we asked to be. Chose to be. Wanted to be. Needed to be. And when we neglect here right now we can never get to over there. Because the only way we can get over there is by being fully present right here right now.

We are in the place we are meant to be to learn more about who we are. To learn more about what makes us want to wake up in the morning. What drives us to be as we are. And when we do not stop to be fully present in the here right now, we lose sight of our presence. Of who we are. Of what we are capable of achieving.  So we end up searching constantly for the obvious that is right here. Right now. In front of us.

So I am telling myself instead of projecting over there to be fully present right here right now. To close my eyes when I feel drawn over there and ask myself to surrender. To surrender to all that is here for me to enjoy right now. For the blessings that come into my present moment every single time I express gratitude for all that I am right here right now.

And when I take the time to be fully present right here right now I realize there is no over there. Over there is outside of me. Right here right now is inside of me.  Allowing myself to accept I am right here right now because that’s where I asked to be. Chose to be. Need to be. Giving me the scope and freedom to feel pure joy because I am satisfied that right here right now I have everything I need. I have all that I was sent here to be. Asked to come here to be.

Right here. Right now. I have all the power and fortune I need. Right here. Right now. Because right here right now is inside of me. Is where I am meant to be. And for right here right now I am truly and utterly grateful. Grounded in this present moment with love and light, peace and blessings. Right here. Right now. Namaste.

The unexpected gifts of the dream stealers

Some people are really sent to try us. To irritate us to no end. To make us question whether we are on the right track or if we need to backtrack. And what we determine about these people is that they come because they are seeking something that we have but can’t admit it. So they try to make us second guess ourselves. They try to steal our dreams. Try to make us lose self confidence.

But what we have to come to realize is there is a part of us that is allowing them in. Allowing them to chip away at our self confidence. Allowing them to destroy our dreams because there is no one that can sabotage us unless we allow them in.  Remembering always that nothing happens to us. Rather everything happens for us. And when we get that message, those people and their steady attempts to derail us will disappear into thin air. Because we realize that’s what they are - thin air. Illusions of our shadows selves.

Thin air desperate to be in the spot light. Thin air trying desperately to deflect away from their own shortcomings. But in doing all the things they do to us in an attempt to make us weaker, if we are honest enough, willing enough to confront our own demons as a result of their actions, we soon realize what they are doing will ultimately make us stronger. Bring us closer to our essence selves via their short cut trials. Because their actions allow us the ability to examine the places we are allowing them in. To come face to face with the insecurities allowing cracks to appear to let them into our minds. To our dreams.  Dream stealers I call them.

But when we step back and observe them from a place deep within ourselves, what we realize is these dream stealers are actually gifts to us. Hard as it is to admit, they help to free us from our own self limitations. From our own traits that will eventually  pull us down.  These people help to liberate us from our own self sabotage by helping us to face our own demons. Much quicker than we would have had they not come to challenge us. And when they keep coming over and over again. Relentlessly as we keep getting stronger and stronger. No longer as fazed by their attempts, they become stronger in their actions. Desperately trying to gain control over our minds again. Refusing to let go of the grip they think they have over us.

It’s then that we need to surrender to their attempts. Surrender them back to the Universe by thanking them for helping us to see who we and who we are not. Thanking them silently in our minds by giving ourselves permission to move on to the next step in our growth.

Learning always, those that criticize the loudest do so because they are so afraid of self examination that they need someone else to blame for where they are in their lives. People who continuously find fault in others are often seeing their own faults magnified to the nth degree. Whereas people who compliment and encourage do so from a place within that allows them to know there is more than enough to go around in this world. They know they don’t have to lie, cheat and sabotage others in order for them to gain.

When we share rather than take, we grow that much more. Enabling the pot of gold to grow because we understand when just one person gains, we allow more abundance in the world. Which in turn, ultimately allows that much more for everyone including us. 

And sometimes we only receive the gifts of abundance in the most unexpected way. From the very dream stealers who think they are derailing us when in essence they are freeing us. Liberating us to be even more compassionate, strong and capable of becoming our dreams with love and light. From their lesson we are taught we are the controllers of our destiny through what we believe and who we are. Not who they wish us to be. Pushing us to be more of who we are. Less of who we are not.